moping around

I have been moping around for a very long time. I do realize that I spend a lot of time complaining about things. Especially things that I can't do anything about. Not even remotely. I told my mom that 2010 is the year I quit my job. Correction: I promised my mom I would quit my job in 2010. I have en entire support. It's good to feel support from my mom. I think that she wished I came home. I don't want to go home, I want to run away from home. I want to go to an island with sunshine and the ocean and more sand.
My step mom was all, like, "you should come and visit". And I was all telling my mom that I didn't know what to answer her.
So my mom emails my step mom and is all, like; "He doesn't want to see you. Leave him alone".
Ah ah!
I love how sometimes my mom comes out very protective of me. It's kind of weird, because she didn't use to be like that.