February

I have to stay two more weeks, because my last pay check is coming later than I thought. Whatever. Should I take this "opportunity" to go see my father in San Diego before he keels over? He's always complained that he was old. 15 years ago he was bitching about turning 60. Which was a lie. He was more, like, turning 50. I do not care that much to give it much thought. Haven't heard from the "other" sister. Which is good. I kinda want to go to SD, kinda not. I want to go and see my brother, but that's about it. He's gonna have a baby, soon - I'm gonna be an auntie - and I know that he needs support .. support .. the term just flies out .. although he's gotten more support in a day than me in my whole entire life .. I don't care, it doesn't matter .. does anything matter?
I just don't want to see my father.
Or maybe I should go and see him after all ...