monday morning

Monday morning is the hardest time. That's when I just want to stay in bed, not get out, not go to work, not go spend another day at something that's killing me. I don't want to see my customers, I don't want to see anyone at work, I don't want to go there. I just want to drop on the sidewalk with the bums and not go to work. I just want to lay there in urine and vomit and pretend I can't do that no more. One of these days I'll do just that. Then I'll be happy because the pain will go away.